I need to leave my own head for a while ...

[amine_eyes]

What's this? Avoiding of essays? YES SIRREE it is :P

Prompt challenge on STXI-Sinfest by hilsongirl 

Pairing: McCoy/Chekov
Rating: NC-17? (Thinking this due to ANGSTY ANGSTNESS that abounds in this :P)
Challenge: I need to leave my own head for a while
A/N: Beta-ed by sororexitium , and if I owned Star Trek, would I really be posting these here? Nope, I'd be putting these into the Films and TV Series! :D

 

This is a crap method of coping, you think to yourself as you press Chekov against the wall, plundering his mouth with your tongue, hands sliding under and inside clothing, noting with a sense of detachment how Chekov’s curls mirror Dawson’s –

 

 Blood blood everywhere, screaming pain and dying and the look in his eyes make it stop Doctor make the pain go away please Doctor please I want my mom I don’t want to die here get me home get me out blood blood blood screaming -

 

“Doctor, please!” Chekov groans out, and you’re jerked back into the present, back to Chekov’s arching body and the growing need in your own to escape from what you’re thinking about. You throw Chekov on the bed – gently, there’s been too many injuries, too many deaths for you to cause another, and you sink down on top, settling in between the boy’s –

 

Man such a man such a beautiful man who lets you do this lets you escape, such beautiful –

 

thighs, feeling them open just for you as you sweep a hand up, up and up until you brush over Chekov’s lips, push fingers inside for sucking, thumb his lips –

 

Lips that plead for help, stained red from blood as Dawson bleeds to death, bubbling your failure in each shuddered gasp and flinch-

 

 You need to escape NOW.

 

You force Chekov’s trousers down, note how he must have known this was going to happen, he’s bare underneath and his cock is arching like the rest of him, ready and willing for you to do this –

 

Such a beautiful body God I’m not worthy how can he let me take him take him and run from what I couldn’t do, who I couldn’t save –

 

You fade out again to Chekov’s thrusts into your grip, vision fading in white oblivion –

 

the white walls of the transporter room clashing with the red, Dawson’s last breath being on the Enterprise and you’re frozen even as you scream for emergency transport to med-bay – crashing back in gasps of breath to Chekov’s arms around you, rubbing small circles on your back, murmuring in broken Russian and English about how you brought Dawson back, you brought Dawson back and that’s what matters.

 

It’s only as you fall asleep curled around your anchor, come and sweat cooling on the twisted sheets, that you realize you were crying from the moment you entered the room.

 

 

*Gleefully runs from the angst she's created xD*

Comments

[sororexitium.livejournal.com]

I love this...despite my still-hesitation about the actual pairing. You really pulled this off well, and made it seem not so squicky. I'm glad Chekov wasn't too...effeminate, which sadly happens very easily.

I also love the way you did Bones thoughts. They were really, really believable to me. The way they ran on, but still were coherent.

Also! Yay for Bones saving Dawson! That's not something you see so often in these fics. Usually it's the loss that pushes Bones to this level of angstiness, and with yours it was just the fact that sometimes having to see all of the destruction that the human body goes through is HARD!

My heart melted with the last line. That was just gorgeous. This entire ficlet was gorgeous!

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Yay! Phew, I didn't want it to be all jailbait or effimate thing, sometimes, Chekov can be the strong one :D

I'm actually doing a little dance over here cos it worked! And thankyou for the lovely comment! *off to spam your inbox with long emails, and PORN (eventually, when I get off here :P)*

[the-arc5.livejournal.com]

YAY.

Bones/Chekov is my sekrit dirtybadwrong pairing (that I love ever so much), and it always makes me sad how little fic there is for them. This is gorgeous. I love Bones' neediness, how truly broken he is. I've always seen Bones as someone who is compassionate to the point of breaking himself; he blusters and grumbles just to keep himself from falling apart with how much he genuinely cares about people. That's shown so beautifully here. I also love how well you've done Chekov, as someone who intuitively knows what's needed and provides that as best he can. I adore competent, strong Chekov, and despite his lack of dialogue, that aspect of his personality really comes through.

Well done!

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

I know, it's so bad, yet so right! :P

AWW I love this comment, thanks for seeing it - Bones just wouldn't stop thinking, wouldn't stop trying to save, and Chekov's there to help him through the tough times, and cheers for that, I was quite worried that it wouldn't work, so this reassures me :D

Thankyou!! :D

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Also, thinking about it, have you read any of mcstories's stuff? There is a LOAD of good McCoy / Chekov stories, including "The Gap Between", "Causality", and the new one, "Verschränkung" ... all are incredibly awesome, and the way she writes McCoy and Chekov leaves me in awe :D

[jimpage363.livejournal.com]

That last line packs quite a punch. Lovely sense of the divided nature of McCoy's mind. He can be analytical even as his mind is shying away in horror from what he's seen. He knows he's not dealing well but can't do anything about it but cope as he is. And Chekov...ahhhh.

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Aw thankyou for the comment! I'm glad it worked, and that Chekov worked too :D

Cheers bb!

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

nicely done.

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Thankyou! :D

[strickens-girl.livejournal.com]

Whoa. This is so hot and angsty and delicious. I really liked this. My fav pairing too so w00t for that!!!

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Oh thanks bb! (And supremely appropriate icon ... may I steal as it's tremendously apt for myself? Will credit :D )

Glad you liked this, and I do love the pairing, something about how it could work ... but then I slash McCoy with preeetty much everything lol

Cheers again! :D

[strickens-girl.livejournal.com]

Feel free to use it. I love it because I'm an angst whore too. Just credit authoressnebula since she's the one who made it. And I'm with you. Bones is so pretty I'll read him with anyone too. But I do like some Chekov loving. *wink*

Cheers!

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Will do and thanks bb! :D

Ah Bones, how we love thee ... *sigh*
Well then once I clear my backlog of fics I'll see if I can write some more *winks back*

:D

[strickens-girl.livejournal.com]

More? Sweet! I may have to friend you to, you know, keep up on the tastiness. Can I friend you? Would you mind? Please say yes. please!

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Why would I mind? By all means *little happy dance at the thought :D*

I warn you now, my writing is chaotic at best lol (though I think my main job for today is actually to sort it out lol - screw writing essays!) xD

[treksnoopy.livejournal.com]

Fantastic. I love this pairing and you did a great job of showing Chekov as a stong person. I think they balance eachother.

I'm now off to read some of your other works because I too adore McCoy in anything.

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Glad you like it :D
And yes, after all, McCoy needs someone to help him too :)

Oh my wow! Makes me feel happy inside to hear that :D

[rosivan.livejournal.com]

that you realize you were crying from the moment you entered the room.

Oh, what a punch in the stomach. I can only imagine what this encounter must have been like for Pavel, whether or not it's been the first time and so on...

♥

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Stop giving me plot bunnies, my room is full at the moment! xD

So glad you like, and I hope the last line didn't hurt you tooo much :D

♥ back :D

[little-tristan.livejournal.com]

I'm with rosivan on the bunnies. Was it the first time? What was Pavel thinking about all this? And thank you so much for portraying him as a strong adult with the ability to give comfort. It's seldom seen in fic, but I love it so much.:)

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

NGH! Don't ... ah screw it (welcomes back the flood of bunnies)
:)

I honestly have no idea, I think it must have happened more than once, simply due to Leonard (as we see him in AOS) is hardly likely to do this on a whim, he'll do it wiht someone he trusts, who lets him be vulnerable - in this case, Pavel.
All these questions that I want to answer! Darn you :P

Thank you EXTREMELY much for reviewing, it means a lot that you liked it :D

[little-tristan.livejournal.com]

I really do like it a lot. Pavel's my boy in STXI, and McCoy is my second favorite match for him, after Scotty. (Age-inappropriate much? Yes, thank you.) Sulu is my third, but he gets the majority of the fics, so anything different is good. And more of THIS would rock my tiny, fic obsessed world. :D

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Well, I do my best to please!
(Adds it to the long list, well ... 2 definite ones for Trek plus at least five ideas waiting to be done :P)

Hmmm ....*pondering face* How would this work ... must read McCoy / Chekov to find out!

Research. Purely. Of course. *shifty eyes*

[little-tristan.livejournal.com]

I'm not much of a reccer, but here's some food for thought: http://community.livejournal.com/st_santa/9017.html?view=54585 McCoy's your guy, and this has 2 of him.:)

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

Two McCoy ... *Fist-pump the air!*

I haven't even read it yet haha ... cheers me dear :D

[goodbyemyfancy.livejournal.com]

Oh my word! Did you know this is my FAVE pairing for the new Star Trek? I had no idea you wrote McCoy/Chekov!

And really hot and sexy too!!!!

[amine-eyes.livejournal.com]

*bows* I iz psychic ma'am xD

Well, I only wrote one for now, and I'm SO glad you like it!! Thank you for the lovely comment :D